It has been a long day! I am realizing that much of my life I have based my worth on what I am doing or what I have done. In my chosen occupation I am even called by what I do, as my players and students call me, Coach Weaver, and it still thrills me when I hear "Coach" with my name. But is that who I am? I love to be with my family, even when shopping. I can always find a book & a quiet place even in the mall. The girls went shopping today, and I was in a lot of pain and slept most of the day. If I am not with my family, I love to have a productive day of yardwork, laundry, or even cleaning house. Today I did nothing to really help anyone! Who am I?
God is teaching me who I am and what honors him the most. I just sent a depressing e-mail to a friend, sorry Steve. I am not a good napper, much less a good patient. But God's strength is perfect, when?
8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Cor 12:8-10 (NKJV)I will share later how I have allowed my "religion" to affect my relationship with Christ, but for now I must admit that I need to let this "race with cancer" teach me that:
- I am a child of God.
- God loves me.
- I am forgiven, when I confess.
- No pain, difficulty, sorrow, or suffering can affect this relationship.
- My value to Christ is not based on what I have done today, yesterday, or tomorrow.
- The miracle is in the "hope" not the "healing."
- I refuse to be depressed by my lack of accomplishments while I heal.
- When I feel weakest, then Christ in me is strong.