Saturday, December 13, 2008

Who Am I?

(I'm the one in the middle, just finished 3rd marathon, & not a good advertisement for running!
It has been a long day! I am realizing that much of my life I have based my worth on what I am doing or what I have done. In my chosen occupation I am even called by what I do, as my players and students call me, Coach Weaver, and it still thrills me when I hear "Coach" with my name. But is that who I am? I love to be with my family, even when shopping. I can always find a book & a quiet place even in the mall. The girls went shopping today, and I was in a lot of pain and slept most of the day. If I am not with my family, I love to have a productive day of yardwork, laundry, or even cleaning house. Today I did nothing to really help anyone! Who am I?
God is teaching me who I am and what honors him the most. I just sent a depressing e-mail to a friend, sorry Steve. I am not a good napper, much less a good patient. But God's strength is perfect, when?
8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Cor 12:8-10 (NKJV)
I will share later how I have allowed my "religion" to affect my relationship with Christ, but for now I must admit that I need to let this "race with cancer" teach me that:
  1. I am a child of God.
  2. God loves me.
  3. I am forgiven, when I confess.
  4. No pain, difficulty, sorrow, or suffering can affect this relationship.
  5. My value to Christ is not based on what I have done today, yesterday, or tomorrow.
  6. The miracle is in the "hope" not the "healing."
  7. I refuse to be depressed by my lack of accomplishments while I heal.
  8. When I feel weakest, then Christ in me is strong.


Anonymous said...

You sorta look like a kernel exploding through the foil of a bag of "Jiffy Pop" in that picture. That makes me laugh! Keep blogging, you're so much better at it than me!

Mary said...

Why is it so difficult for us to understand that God loves us for who we are? He made us! We are always so busy trying to do something to show our greatness, when our very existence shows God's greatness.I am so pleased with your recent news and so thrilled to be able to follow your progress. I pray that you continue to bless others.